Excerpt: Prayer Before the Prayer

by Desmond Tutu and Mpho Tutu


I want to be willing to let go, to forgive.

But dare not ask for the will to forgive,

in case you give it to me

And I am not yet ready.

I am not yet ready for my heart to soften.

I am not yet ready to be vulnerable again.

Not yet ready to see that there is humanity in my tormentor’s eyes

Or that the one who hurt me may also have cried

I am not yet ready for the journey....